Being comfortable with sex is one of the best things in the history of ever. If you’re comfortable with your body and sharing what you want with your partner, and them doing the same with you…that’s awesome. The world would be a lot better if people where a lot more comfortable about sex. Just to clarify, I don’t mean go have sex w everyone whenever you want. I mean you and a partner with whom you have a good relationship that’s respectful and understanding. I freaking love sex. I have no off switch. I can just go and go.
Its a new start and I love it. I’m blocking out the people who fed me negative things, for their benefit. I’m not playing your game anymore. You’re very sneaky and I’m so stupid for ever believing you. Of course you were going to steer me wrong. Of course you got me all hype, kept reminding me why I should be mad. Made me say things I didn’t mean, or even really feel. But I’m not confused anymore. You’re blocked from everything.
“You loved me - then what right had you to leave me?…You, of your own will, did it. I have not broken your heart - you have broken it; and in breaking it, you have broken mine.”—Wuthering Heights (via life-love-garbage)
Since I’ve been working here I’ve perfected the quick and basic makeup application, a big difference from when I worked retail. My favorite mascara was maxfactor 2000cal but I haven’t been able to find it so now I use maybeline falsies and I love it! The best eyeliner is L’oreal extra intense liquid pencil liner. I use it on my waterline only, and use this super cheap liquid liner from some asian owned beauty supply store. It stays put never smudges. Less than I can say for the sephora and MAC. Liners I have. Lips are simple. Beige by nyx. And elf eyebrow powder bc I feel totally weird if my brows aren’t filled in!! Blush is melba (mac) perfect peach
You make me laugh. If I’m laughing that means I’m happy. If I’m happy that means I’m keeping you around. He calls me to tell me he loves me so much and its cute hearing him scramble for the words to explain how much. My favorite part of this conversation is when he said he wants to spend the rest of his life with me, have 14 kids and live on a farm…and 7 kids would have mexican names the other 7 black names lol
today I had my appt. The doctor took a lot of time to explain everything to me, I didn’t feel so scared anymore and I wish all my docs could be like her. I finally told someone, and it felt good to get it out. I’m feeling myself again!